*from the footnotes in my Life Application Bible: "If they had continued to live in the garden and eat from the tree of life they would have lived forever. But eternal life in a state of sin would mean forever trying to hide from God."
Hmm - that's interesting…a state of sin = trying to hide from God?
Is that what I do? Try to "hide" from God? When I think about the times that I avoid reading/praying by "forgetting" or neglecting to take the time, or being busy…is it that I'm sub-consciously thinking that maybe if I stay away from reading the word and praying to God, I can "avoid" God's…discipline, judgment, correction…in a sense "hiding" from him. If I don't read about it or have a conversation with him about it, can I pretend that everything is okay - that there is nothing in my heart, thoughts or actions that need changing?
This reminds me of when Bridgette was little and we would catch her doing something wrong and give her an opportunity to change her behavior before getting a spanking. We'd start counting and before we would get to 3 she would cover her butt with her hands to avoid the spanking (trying to "hide" from being disciplined) instead of acknowledging the wrong and changing the behavior. As an adult I can see my own version of trying to "cover my butt", when really I just need to face things head on and allow God to do whatever it is he needs to do in my life in order for me to change my behavior (repentance)…even if it means a momentary sting of pain.
Hebrews 12:11 "No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it."
In reality though, I cannot hide from God…he sees and knows everything that concerns me! And while in some respects that seems scary, it is also comforting to know that despite God knowing everything about me…he still loves me. In fact he loved me enough to send his only son, Jesus to die for me…the Lamb of God who takes away not only the sin of the world, but MY sin…so that I could have eternal life! Why would I want to hide from a God who has promised me that? I don't want to hide…instead I want to be running toward him! We used to sing a song at church years ago called Where We Belong that reminds me of this!
Lord, help me to fight the urge to want to hide, and instead fill me with the desire to RUN to your throne, where I belong!
Where We Belong by Hillsong
There is no height or depth
Neither life nor death
That can take me from all that I find
Here now in Your Glory Lord
No other powers or love
The things of now or to come
There's nothing on earth in this life
That could ever separate us Lord
Your Love is never ending
To your hands we surrender
Where all our sins are washed away
Your Grace beyond reason
Has paid for our freedom
We're made alive in You
We run to Your Throne
Where we belong
Every heart will sing
That Jesus is Lord
Casting all else aside
For the joy of our Christ
Let Your Glory fall
Our hearts are filled with Your Fire