Friday, March 18, 2016

The Honey Pot: Simple Muffins (with almond flour base)

I love a good muffin!  I'm not a big breakfast person, so having something small and easy in the morning is the way to go!  Which is why I love this recipe so much.  It fits my diabetic needs for lower carb by replacing all-purpose flour with almond flour, and regular white sugar with Truvia baking blend.  It is also versatile, in that you can pretty much make them any flavor.  While, I share several flavor options in the recipe, the most recent flavors I made were Apple Cinnamon and Banana Nut, and I will talk a little bit more about those below the recipe.  I usually like to make two batches at a time (24 muffins) and freeze them.  Then in the mornings I can just take a couple out, and pop them in the microwave for 1 min and it's just like they are fresh right out of the oven!

Simple Muffins (almond flour base)

2 cups almond flour
2 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
1/3 cup Truvia baking blend
1/2 cup oil
4 eggs
1/3 cup water

Flavor Options:
Apple cinnamon (1 apple peeled & chopped, tossed with cinnamon)
Banana nut (1-2 tsp banana extract and optional chopped walnuts)
Blueberries (approx. 1 cup fresh or frozen)
Lemon poppy seed (1-2 tsp lemon extract and 2 tbsp poppy seeds)
Strawberries (approx. 1 cup chopped fresh, or strawberry sauce*)
Zucchini (approx. 1 cup shredded)

Preheat oven to 400F.  Place muffin papers in a 12-muffin tin.  Mix dry ingredients together well.  Add wet ingredients and mix thoroughly, then mix in the flavor option of your choice.  Scoop into muffin tins 1/2 to 2/3 full) and bake for 18 minutes (or until tester comes out clean)

Banana Nut.  You will notice that I did not use actual bananas.  Nothing personal against bananas (well, maybe just a little bit personal), they are a very lovely fruit...but they tend to spike my blood sugar.  meh.  But, I love the I thought why not try banana flavored extract.  I listed 1-2 tsp above, but the next time I make them, I may actually try a little more extract as I thought they were a little weak on banana flavor.  If you LOVE nuts, you might want to go ahead and mix them right into the batter.  While I like nuts, I didn't really want them all through out my muffin, so I just plopped a few on top and then sprinkled a little cinnamon/sugar on them before baking.

Apple Cinnamon.  These babies came out absolutely perfect in my opinion.  I actually added cinnamon to the batter as well (I like cinnamon, what can I say).  And, to be honest, even though it has been a while since I've had a regular flour/sugar muffin, I couldn't even tell the difference.  They do not taste like they were made with almond flour...and that makes me a very happy girl! Paired with a cup of caramel drizzle coffee, my mornings are simply delicious!

*Strawberry Sauce...I made muffins once using some leftover strawberry sauce I had originally made as cheesecake topping.  Here is the recipe I used...however, I swapped the white sugar out and used the equivalent amount of Truvia baking blend. 

Thursday, March 17, 2016

"Leetle Leezards"

First off, you must read the title with somesort of a Russian accent...if you are at all familiar with the James Bond movie Goldeneye...think of Alan Cumming's character, Boris!  

Now, if you live here, or have ever visited Florida, you have probably seen a lizard or twenty, at any given time. 

They are everywhere outdoors, scurrying about.  When you first come to Florida, it's a bit disconcerting, but after a while they just become part of the natural background.

Except, from time to time, they end up inside.  Once there was one that was roaming around Bridgette's room for what seemed like a couple of weeks...ever since she calls all of them, Fred! We're not sure what happened to the original Fred, but over the last couple months, several of his pesky relatives have managed to find a way into our house.  But, do not fear, because we have the greatest lizard hunter in all the land...and her name is Cinnamon!

Although, Cinnamon isn't really a hunter...she is more of a torturer.  She has LOADS of fun, playing with the poor little creatures, batting them around...carrying her precious prize in her mouth from one place to another...ultimately causing these defenseless reptiles to disconnect from their tails in the vain hope of escaping the nightmare of this furry giant.


Because it seems to be happening quite a bit lately, I've actually taken to saving one of the plastic cups I use to scoop the little buggers up with and labeled that it doesn't accidently get used for someone's drink.  If lizards could read, I might find a way of posting little signs, warning them of the terror that awaits them, should they decide to enter our home.  Alas, once Cinnamon discovers that one has entered her lair, doom is eminent...and sadly even after I attempt a rescue mission, they usually succumb to their demise.   Just in case you can't read my writing very well it says:

A Reptile

(please excuse my spelling on the cup...I forgot to recite to myself "i before e" when writing "retreival" and also should have known better when writing "recepticle"!  SIGH,  now I am going to have to go recycle this cup and rewrite it on a new one, because it's going to bug me forever if I don't!!!)

Friday, February 19, 2016

The Honey Pot: Eggroll Stir-Fry

Tonight we made this super yummy dish for the second time.  It was originally a throw together in I completely "winged" it, from recipe!  Well, it was so good, I decided to write it down how I made it and named it Eggroll Stir-Fry...because as I was making it, it sort of smelled like an eggroll.

I made it with pork, but you could do it with chicken, shrimp, any meat really...or leave the meat out all together.

Eggroll Stir-Fry

Pork stew meat pieces (or just boneless chops cut in bite size pieces)
Kraft Lite Asian Sesame dressing
Peppers & Onions chopped
1 small can Mushrooms chopped
2 cups Cabbage chopped (I used purple)
1 tbsp Butter & splash of olive oil
Cooked brown or basmati rice
chow mein noodles (optional)

Marinate pork pieces in dressing (several hours or overnight)

In a large skillet, saute peppers & onions in butter & olive oil...when almost done add cabbage and mushroom, continue cooking until all is soft...remove to bowl.  In same skillet cook marinated pork pieces until they are done...add pepper/onion mixture back in to skillet, mix and heat through.  Serve over hot cooked rice and top with chow mein noodles if you like!

I won't pretend to be able to calculate the nutrients...carbs and all that.  But, I imagine that it's pretty low carb, other than the rice & a little bit in the dressing, the rest of it wouldn't be much.  If you are seriously watching your carbs, you could always leave out the rice...and choose something different to replace the dressing marinade. 

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

New Year - New Hope: February Journal

I've decided to not continue posting my journal entries.  I find that I'm not writing anything of significance so, and feel that they aren't really worth reading.  I haven't given up on my "resolutions"...just not going to write about them here. 

I'm not sure what the future of my blog will be.  We'll see what time brings.   

I am excited that our Wednesday night bible study at church is beginning again this week after a several year fact I don't think we've had one since my mom died (although there was a sort of Sunday "evening service" type bible study for a while, but eventually that ended too).  Perhaps, I will have some interesting things to share from that?   

Or maybe, just go back to posting random things on occasion.  I don't know.  I'm not sure (besides my friend, Bethany and Bridgette & Brian) who even reads this anyway.   

At any rate, until then...Blessings :)

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

New Year - New Hope: Fasting Journal {February 2016}

Thought I would do a more indepth post about the Three days of my fast.

February 1 - Today is day one of my fast. I wanted to do a beginning weigh in/measurements and I am pleased to say that those 2lbs that I reported as lost on the 29th are still missing!  I will not be putting their picture on a milk carton though!  Ha ha!  I also had an inch down in 2 places.  Not that this fast is necessarily about weight loss, as I mentioned before it's about my overall health, physically, Spiritually, emotionally.

I am asking God to "take back your temple".

Bridge & I are going on our walk early so that she can go do interny things at the theatre this afternoon.  I'm actually looking forward to being alone for a little while so that I have a quiet "quiet time"!

It's been a good first day so far.  My blood sugar has been good, so no concerns there at this point. I've been reading & journaling (in my actual journal, not here on the computer).  And while it's been informative and encouraging, I don't think I'm getting down to the nitty gritty of things yet. 

One thing that I came across in my reading was a comparison between conviction and condemnation that I thought was eye-opening…

Conviction says: Hey, you're going in the wrong direction, here's a better way.  Conviction carries HOPE.

Condemnation says: You're bad and you will always be this way.  Condemnation carries HOPELESSNESS.

But Romans 8:1-4  says: Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.  For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did by sending his own son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering .  And so he condemned sin in sinful man, in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit.

So it's now 8:30pm  I've successfully managed to get through today's meals...without eating, only drinking water and 2 cups of V8 Fusion juice.  I've been checking my blood sugar, and it's been really good all day.  Although I have been secretly hoping that it would go low enough to give me an excuse to eat something, but that hasn't happened.  I guess that's a good thing :)  I do have a slight headache though.

February 2  - Here I am, Day 2. I have feeling this may be a harder day to get through.  I still have my little headache (may need to take something for that).  Bridgette should be home all day, but will probably be doing stuff in her room.  I really need to do some serious praying today.

It's noon time now...and I just had a time of prayer & worship with thing that was worked out, something I wasn't expecting, was my feelings about choosing not to be with my mom during her last hours, four years ago.  How I felt guilty in a way for selfishly not being there, because I didn't want to watch her die...and felt that I had somehow let her down by not being there.  I don't know and don't really believe that she was even aware of things because of the morphine, but my fear was that if she was aware, that she was sad or afraid or just wondered why I wasn't there.  I am grateful that Rebecca (our pastor's daughter) did stay with her, but I have felt guilty that it was someone outside our family who stayed with her.  During my prayer today, I asked for forgiveness, whether it was needed or not, and asked that God would take the burden of these thoughts from me.  I can't go back and change things, they are what they are...and I'm not sure that I would do anything differently if I could.  I will just hang on to the knowledge that she is at peace now, and cling to the hope that I will see her (and my dad) again someday.  I am feeling at peace about it...I think I have released the burden to God.  I pray that should those thoughts ever resurface, that I will remember that it's been taken care of, and it's not my burden any longer.  I have cast this care on the Lord and he will sustain me.

I also wanted to share the email blessing from Susie Larson I received fitting for this time:

May new and fresh hope suddenly arise within you! May the enemy's plan against you backfire as you grow stronger in your trials, not weaker. May your sturdy grasp of God's promises intimidate the enemy and make him lose heart! May you find JOY in the heat of the battle, POWER in the promises of God, and PROVISION where you've known lack. May the things you once knew of God pale in comparison to what you know of Him now. He makes all things new. He breaks through. And He will come through for you. Soldier on, mighty one! God is with you!

As well as the verse of the day…1 Corinthians 2:9  However, as it is written: “What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived”— the things God has prepared for those who love him

I am so thankful that God makes all things new...I need to be made new, continually! I love the end of the blessing…"Soldier on, mighty one!  God is with you!"  that's a pep talk right there!  I am looking forward to all the wonderful,  inconceivable things that God has prepared for me!

I came across this and thought it was interesting...and something to remember when I get stressed about my health or anything really...

It's now close to supper time...or what would be supper time if I were eating.  Anyway, I was re-calculating the 48 hours this afternoon, cause I was originally thinking the time would be up tomorrow night at midnight, but I was wrong and it's actually up tonight at midnight. ( & math :P )  SO...I will be done sooner than expected.  I'm not sure that I accomplished all that I wanted to accomplish during this time, but that's okay.  It was a boost, at any rate and I will hopefully continue to make good progress.  I don't know if I necessarily received the answers I was looking for, but I certainly learned some things and was reminded of others, so I will say that it was successful.

I am hungry though, that's for sure, and I am looking forward to breaking my fast!  But, my goodness supper sure smells good :(  And, ugh the sounds of people eating is making me want to run away...Lord, help me make it through the next few minutes until they are done. 

What I haven't done so great with is staying off facebook.  Monday was better than today,  I really think if I ever want to do a successful facebook fast I would need to deactivate my account for a while.  Unfortunately, because I am responsible for posting church things on their facebook page, this isn't something that I could really do.  So I will need to think about this more and really rely on God's strength if I were to fast facebook.

February 3 -  As I was going to do my quiet time (scripture writing/prayer) I revisited yesterday's verse for prayer.  February's prayer topic is regarding husbands...and this particular verse was in reference to harmony (or unity as it is in the NIV).  Here is the verse from Roman's 15:5-6…

May the God who gives endurance and encouragement  give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus, so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.

And clearly the point of this passage is indeed unity (harmony).  But the thing that stood out to me...really jumped off the page for me was "the God who give endurance and encouragement…"  Those two words for me go together right now, it's what I am desiring - that I would be able to endure (keep going even though it's hard work) and that it wouldn't be without encouragement.  There is nothing worse (relatively speaking) than feeling like you are putting a bunch of effort into being healthy & losing weight and getting nowhere.

Today I am encouraged because I endured the 48 hour fast and lost 3lbs!  I am so thankful to God for the boost!  I pray that God will continue to give me endurance for this long road ahead, and that he would bless me with some encouraging milestones.  I am asking for his blessing and favor to not only get back to where I was last June, but to continue beyond that!  I want to finish this race and win the prize!

Finally, I will close out this special fasting portion of my New Year - New Hope journal with today's email blessing from Susie Larson:

When you come to the edges of yourself and you feel the limits of your love and your generosity...instead of despair, just whisper a prayer to the God who loves you. He'll do through you, what you cannot do for yourself. He never rolls His eyes or breathes a heavy sigh when He looks at you. May you--right in the midst of your limits--look to Jesus who intends to finish what He started in you. Walk freely today, knowing you (like the rest of us) are a work in progress. And you get to be; without the condemnation. Blessings on your day this day

Monday, February 1, 2016

Honey Bee's New Year - New Hope: January {Part Two} is Part 2!

January 19 - today is my doctors appointment.  Despite efforts to keep myself calm, I am still very nervous.  I've always hated going to the doctors.  Don't know what happened to those almost 2lbs that I supposedly lost the other day, but they found me again.'s so depressing.  Plexus is expensive, I want to see some progress, even just  little consistent drops would be good, but instead I've got nothing.  I don't want to keep spending money and get nowhere.

January 20 - okay so yesterday was my doctor's appointment.  I was so super stressed about it...but it went okay. I am so happy I made the choice to switch doctors, she is so nice, even in the light of negative changes, she told me not to fret, that we'd work on getting things better.  Now that's encouraging!   She thinks that perhaps my weight gain since June's appointment may be because my thyroid has gone wacky (it hadn't been checked since March) and partly due to me going into menopause (33 days and I can official claim it!) they did blood work for that before I left, don’t know the results  yet.  She also took me off of my diabetes medication. I'm not sure how I feel about that.  I mean I'm glad she felt my a1c has been good enough to warrant taking me off of it, but the thought of maintaining such good numbers without medication has me stressed.   I'm already stressed about my eating because of the weight gain...this is just going to compound that.  Oh Lord, help me to achieve this without having to get all extreme.  I just want to be able to enjoy eating, not turn it into a dreaded chore...or say I can never have something again because it's not necessarily good for me.  Not to make this entry longer than it needs to be...but with the exception of the weekends, I have been keeping up with my bible time too, which has been nice. No, jump off the page type things to share today, just a nice quiet time.

January 21 - well, I heard from the doctor this morning.  My thyroid is normal.  So other than menopause, there is nothing to blame but myself.  Apparently I just suck at getting & staying healthy.  I am trying...but what if the weight just keeps coming anyway?  Feeling  defeated today, which doesn't help me want to continue to do the yucky stuff.  I mean if it's not helping anyway, why not just do what I want.  I don't like today.  It's very depressing when you are trying and no progress is being made. 

UPDATE:  God is good!  I was encouraged by the time in God's word after I wrote the actually brought me to tears.  I was reminded of 3 things; 1) DELIGHT in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart!  2) Commit your way to the Lord and he will do this!  And 3) NO barrier of sin or weakness on our part can stifle his forgiveness!  I definitely needed to hear ALL of those things from God today.  PS: also just wanted to note that supposedly I am supposed to be drinking half my body weight in ounces (of water) while doing Plexus.  DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW HARD THAT IS TO DO?  It's a LOT of water.  I finally did it yesterday for the first time since starting Plexus...and had to go pee every time I turned around.  I'm going to try to do that again today...but my goodness it's not easy.  

SECOND UPDATE:  Okay, so after all that, some tiny things happened today and I let my emotions drag me back down in the dumps.  I was hot mess for most of the afternoon. Then as I was scrolling through facebook (yep, I still haven't given that up...but at this moment I'm glad) I came across this from Susie Larson, an author that I follow, who happens to post blessings everyday:

Evening Blessing: May you refuse to let your emotions dictate your perspective. You have Jesus. You have His presence. And you have His promises! When what your eyes see is different than what your heart deeply desires, look up and pray. He invites you to walk with Him, talk with Him, and involve Him in every detail of your life. If you're in the 'not-yet' season, take time to worship God because He's God; take time to thank Him too, because He's been good. And dare to ask for the impossible, because He's a wonder-working God. Your story is not over yet. Have a heart-at-rest kind of night. God bless you!  

Can I just say that I totally bawled.  You know that God is speaking to you when you get a neon sign like that dropped in front of your face!  Alright God, I'm paying attention.  I may just need to put this on a giant poster and read it every single day, but I WILL take it to heart!

January 22 - Today Bridgette and I did our own version of a Bollywood work out (one of the stations I found on Pandora)!  I'm sure we would have been quite a sight if anyone had seen us! I have no idea what they are singing, but the music sure does make you want to move :)  Great for working those core muscles!

January 23 - I haven't been all that happy with my blood sugar numbers since stopping the metformin.  Not that they have been horrible, but certainly not as good as when I was taking it...and it's been giving me some stress, worrying that every little thing I put into my mouth, will spike my blood sugar.  So, I decided for the sake of having less stress (and since I still had plenty left, and 2 more refills), and in the hopes of not causing my body damage from higher blood sugar readings, that I would try cutting the dose in half, and see how I do with that.  I'm not sure why she didn't suggest that in the first place, to see how I do, instead of having me go "cold turkey".   At any rate, if my numbers are still up higher than I'm comfortable with, I will call my doctor to let her know and see what she'd like me to do.

January 24 - Been thinking about the phrase "take back your temple" (reading a Christian weight loss [program] website/blog recently by the same name) and when I first thought about it, I was thinking of it in the sense of getting back control of your health...but that's not what it is at all.  It's meant to be a phrase  prayer to God...asking him to take back HIS temple, putting the control back in his hands (where it should be anyway).  When thought of in that way, it puts a whole NEW perspective on things!  Today's sermon was about the story of Gideon...some things I knew, other things were new. I like when I hear something profound about a bible story that I either hadn't heard before or something new is revealed in what was previously known.  Gideon basically starts out as a scaredy cat, hiding in a winepress threshing wheat, moves to a confident leader of the Israelite army whom God uses to bring about the defeat of the Midianites by impossible odds, and ends up letting the victories go to his head, thinking he was "all that" and taking it upon himself to enact revenge on those who refused to help them.  How does this apply to me in my weight loss goals?  First, I need to stop being scared and "get out of the winepress".  Second, I need to trust what God says, and let him bring about the victories. And Third, when the victories do come...don't let them go to my head, because they won't (and shouldn't) be my doing...they are HIS.  Which is a difficult thing for me.  I keep thinking that I HAVE TO DO THIS, I have to FIGURE things out...and basically afraid that if I don't eat perfectly healthy, in the perfect portion sizes, and workout most days, that I am doomed to fail.  There are SO MANY health options/tips/methods out there.  Even if I were to pick the correct one...doing it perfectly is a tall order...and perhaps next to impossible!  But, what I can do is pray each day for God to take back his temple...let him guide me each day in my choices...and then let him have the glory when victory comes.

January 25 - It's a Monday.  Bridgette went to help out in the box office at the theatre this afternoon.  So I exercised by my lonesome.  I danced (if you can call it that) around the living room to swing music for about 40 min. 

January 27 - The floor went in it's rainy so, didn't do any exercise. :( I'm missing going for walks with Bridgette.  I also decided that I would continue with the Plexus Slim for February...but unless I see some drastic changes, I will discontinue after that.  I can't justify the price for just a general feeling of well-being.  Granted, I can't really know what good it is doing, and am slightly afraid that it has helped with my blood sugar, and that stopping will adversely affect those numbers.  But that is a risk I'll have to our bank account is also being adversely affected!   

January 28 - Still rainy.  Did about 15 - 20 min walking type stuff with the weights again. I'm considering doing a partial fast next week (food, tv & internet)  I feel like I need to take some time getting closer to God...give him my present & future health, both spiritual and well as other fears that are hanging around.  Don't worry, I will be careful and monitor my blood sugar and adjust things should my numbers decide to get wacky.

January 29 - Bridgette & I walked around our little neighborhood loop twice today.  It's been a little while since we've been able to go outside and walk, so feeling a little out of practice.  Hopefully next week, we can get back to our normal walking route.  I've been working on getting prepared for my fast...gathering reading/study  materials and sending them to my kindle (less temptation for getting on the internet to read!) and compiling some of my praise & worship music into a playlist of sorts on my mp3 player so that I can be encouraged that way as well.  Ps: I have been relatively happy with my blood sugar readings at the half will continue that and let her know that when I go back in April.  Will continue to monitor to make sure, things stay in a good range.  Also, down 2lbs this morning...although don't know how legit that is, as the inches are all still the same...Boo!

And since it is Friday, and I haven't really been journaling on the weekends, this will conclude the January portion of Honey Bee's New Year - New Hope!  Hopefully I will have some fabulous things to share for February...especially in regards to my fast!  

So, until then...may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you. [2 Thess. 3:16]

Monday, January 25, 2016

Honey Bee's New Year - New Hope: January {Part One}

So, I decided to split up my resolution journal into two posts.  One now, with entries through January 15th and the second on February 1st with the rest. 

I didn't end up journaling every day...but that's okay, cause who wants to read all that anyway. Quite frankly, you probably don't want to read any of what I did write, but nobody is making you, so feel free to go do something else instead, I won't be offended :)

December 30 - day 1 of Plexus Slim...the pink drink...It was surprisingly yummy!  I don't think I will have a problem at all drinking one of those babies every day.  It seems entirely too simple.  I know that, obviously, I still need to make dietary changes and exercise...and I plan to do that (with God & Bridgie's help)...perhaps this will give me the boost I need to get the job done.  I recorded my beginning weight and measurements...eesh, lets not talk about those numbers, too depressing!

December 31 - day 2 of Plexus Slim.  I woke up actually feeling a little slimmer...I know it's crazy, but I swear I felt a tiny bit smaller, so I measured again, only in my mid section...upper abs (aka the belly roll), waist & see if I was just imagining things and sure enough all 3 measurements were down an inch each!  Granted, I know I probably fluctuate on any given day, but it was still encouraging! 

January 1 - day 3 of Plexus Slim.  Today is also the day I need to get serious about my God time. 

January 2 - day 4 of Plexus Slim. A Saturday and I couldn't sleep...ended up getting up around 5:30 because my mind kept thinking about my to-do list for the day.  Came out to the living room made my list and had a really sweet quiet time...The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, his mercies never come to an end, they are new every morning, great is thy faithfulness!

January 3 -day 5 of Plexus Slim.  Time got away from me today, and I didn't end up doing my own personal quiet time :(  but it was Sunday, and I did go to church, so there is that.  Tomorrow begins the post-holiday lets get down to business time. I think the plan is for Bridgette and I to walk.  Outside.  Part of me just wants to dance around to this fun Bollywood workout station on Pandora, but not if anyone shows up to work on the the weather is supposed to be cool, so perfect for being outside (as long as it doesn’t make my nose run!)

January 4 - day 6 of Plexus Slim.  Bridgette and I went for our walk, it was gorgeous outside. We made a loop around our neighborhood and the neighborhood across the street...the route is a little over 2 miles! We are going to try and do it most days, schedule & weather permitting.

January 5 - day 7 of Plexus Slim.  Drank my last pink drink today...well at least until my new supply gets here.  Hopefully by Saturday at the latest.  Yes I've lost 1 inch on my waist, 2 inches upper ab, 2 inches hip! The scale did not budge though.  I'm going to give it a  month and see if there is any progress.  Because it's way too expensive for mediocre matter what the claims may be.  Bridge & I walked again today, tomorrow maybe difficult to get things in, as we are going off for most of the day.  But part of our day is shopping, so we'll be walking around some, probably not 2 miles worth though.  And I'll also have to find time later in the evening to do my bible time.

January 7  - Bridge & I did our walk with Hannah was a fun having her along!

January 9 - I didn't really journal the last few days...a couple of the days we were busy with things, and then I I was waiting for more Plexus to come.  It arrived yesterday and so now I'm back in business!  I did miss one day of bible time on Wednesday the 6th because we were out most of the day, and find that if I don't do it in the morning, chances are I won't do it later.  The scripture writing is going pretty well.  I haven't been all that happy with the scripture praying though, but it might be the topic for January...I'm finding it hard to know how to pray regarding these scriptures.

January 11 - I have a feeling that weekends are going to be difficult to keep up with bible time. During the week, it's a little easier, I know I'm not going to be perfect with this...and that's okay.  I need to know that if I miss some days, I am not a failure.  I don't want to give up...even though sometimes that is how I feel.  I want to be perfect, and I can overwhelm myself with the feeling that if I can't do it just right, than I shouldn't do it at all.  Where does that come from?  Is it a lie from the devil?  Some sort of ploy to keep me from doing it.  I'm sure that it is...and I need to remind myself of that.  I am continuing to drink my Plexus, and feel like it's helping a little.  I've been sleeping better the last few nights and my shoulders don't seem to be bothering when I wake up the last couple of days.  Bridgette and I walked again today.

January 12 - Today was blood work for my doctors appointment next week.  Hopefully everything will look decent.  I am still frustrated though (I missed a couple of days  while waiting for my Plexus order, but it was only 2 days) as I gained a pound and all my measurements were the same as last Tuesday.  I don't know what's up with that.  I swear, the amount and what I am eating shouldn't  be causing this, in fact I've actually given up some stuff.  I FEEL good, I would just like to see some progress as far as the scale and measurements go.

January 13 - 3rd day to walk this week, and I am continuing to have a bible time!

January 14 - stepped on the scale this morning (yeah, I know, I know) but I was down almost 2lbs...thankful for the tiniest bit of progress! Had my bible time, but didn't walk today.  However cleaned up the kitchen and did 4 loads of laundry!

January 15 -Brian was off today for his doctor appointment...which wasn't horrible, but he has improvements to make.  Just like me. "It's a lifestyle change"...ugh I hate that phrase.  It makes it seem like we're awful people because we haven't done things perfectly.  This is one of the things I don't like about some doctors...they harp on the negative, and don't offer any recognition for the things that have improved. I don't know about you, but I respond better to encouragement. However, we will work on this together.  PS: The room is done (minus the floor and some finishing painting/staining to do) & paid for!  Mom said she has 39 working days left!

So if by some odd chance that this actually interested you, stay tuned next Monday for Part Two!